Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Public Holiday !!

Raghupati Raghav Rajaram....my cellphone started ringing and unwillingly I had to leave my beautiful dream in halfway.I drew my head away from a shawl and by the time I picked that call, I missed it. I dragged my legs out from bed and I turned towards the monitor balancing myself from early morning laziness. I hit the chair and switched on my computer. "On 30th Jan, the day on which Mahatma Gandhi was shot...IITM enjoying rock show...what a pity...shameless people...".....this two lines of status message caught my attention through half open eyes. First of all rock show was over 29th night only. On 30th , some fusion music and hip-hop band were performing. But still I got his feelings behind that status message.

I strongly disagree with his statement.Why shouldn't we enjoy on such days? Do we need to stop all our work for it? Why??? I don't think it is necessary to sit down at home dumping all our fun time, work time. I know many of you won't like my thoughts. Those may be out of your so called Moral Respect towards national Heroes. But try thinking other way and ask one question to yourself "How many times have you given 'Shraddhanjali -bilkul Dilse'... to them on such occasions?? " I am sure atleast 90 % of you will answer NO to this question. Why do government keep national/ public holidays for such days? Just to relax at home ?? Take a break from office, studies ?? Why ?? ( This doesn't mean that I don't like holidays ;-) ...) But the purpose of keeping day off is not satisfied. So why is it against of so called Moral Respect ? Why should not we enjoy on such days? If you want to remember our national Heroes then just keep one day for remembrance to all and on that day you show your respect towards them.

P.S. - If anyone want nokia keypress ringtone for Raghupati Raghav Rajaram.... then write that in comment. I will post there.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Random thoughts

I know I'm sitting jobless and still have a trillion and a half things running on my mind. My current state of mind is so haphazard that I can't even bring it out in the form of words. No no, these aren't my mood swings. Call it multi-tasking or simply the lack of ability to streamline one's thoughts and think coherently to put up a proper post. In simple words, call it just an excuse.
The rate at which am watching movies has reached its zenith and the rate of socializing and networking has perfectly balanced my state of ennui(so bored...just trying some uncommon words :p). With the newly acquired musical collection, I couldn't be more busy!
Have you ever felt that you could be surrounded by a huge group of chattering people, yet felt lonesome ? And be with one person and find hours evaporating into seconds ?
And why is it that when you need people around, all of them are either busy or not reachable or are onto things that obviously make u feel measly.
I don't wish to live in this moment !
Hope is a misnomer !

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

The End !

I don't know how to start this story...like most stories similar to this one, doesn't have definite start. This incidence happened with one of my best friend recently.He is a straight-forward, calm guy. This post is based on the conversation I had with him. So little background about it, till he realised the feelings he was completely changed. She had started coming through his poetry, his dreams, in everything. Like all so called lovers he started experiencing sleepless nights, dreaming about her always, started watching SRK's typical stupid(?) movies , lost concentration in studies and what not. He couldn't hold his feelings longer and he finally decided to tell her everything he felt.

On that day he reached at the pre-decided venue 5 min.s before time. She arrived there and looked for him but she couldn't. Suddenly he came forward and gave her surprise...she was totally shocked and happy to see him. His mind was completely out of his control...he was not able to speak with words...just smiled towards her and they both got inside restaurant. A beautiful track from Saathiya was playing, favourite of both of them. Few minutes passed, no one was speaking a single word. Finally she broke the silence and started conversation. She kept talking and he was only listening and observing her. "Hey, today also I am late. Complete 9 mins late. Sorry...really sorry."..."Its ok, chalata hai", he replied with smile as usual. She asked in little serious voice, "XXXXX, promise me one thing."... "About what?"..... "Promise me, you will not leave me though I do any mistake. Irrespective of all my mistakes ,you will forgive me. Promise me... you will be with me whole life." After listening all this, he got little bit shocked, " Yes, I won't leave you whatever may happen XXXXXX. I will always be with you. But today, why are you asking me all this? " Smile came on her face and she answered," Thanks...thank you very much... I just felt somewhat nervous today that's why I asked you. really lucky I am." ..."Hahaa, its ok stupid.",he smiled. They talked for an hour and then she asked him, " You are going to tell me na , who is she? I couldn't guess...tell me na.." ... "hahaha...wait na..I will tell you". "ok".
He was somewhat circumspect. " Why your hands are shivering? Shall we tell them to turn off the AC? Are you ok na? What happened? ", she questioned him watching his situation. " Nothing re. I am fine. Aisehi bass. I think now your favourite song will be played- Tu hi meri shab hai", he smiled. And what a surprise , same song had started playing. He was thinking good mood has been set up, really nice..this is right time to tell. Both smiled. "Are you going to tell me today or not?" ... " Ya, ya...I will tell you today only. Just wait. Listen to the song, after that I will tell you"...And then finally the moment came. "You wanted to know na, who is she?..That person is you only"....Total silence...."Wait..don't look at me for few minutes. I don't know what to speak"..."ok...", and he turned his head...no one spoke for 10 minutes then ,"Arre I am not that good re. You are too good in fact best ...I never realised your feelings.", she covered her face with hands....again silence spread but he got the answer from her face. He was totally lost, completely down. " Do you want me to speak something? "... "No, I just wanted to tell my feelings and that I told. I don't want to hear anything."...His voice was down, he just stopped breathing. Its really hard when something like this happens. Still his face was smiling but he was crying inside. She held his hand in her hands. He felt somewhat relaxed by her touch....felt like she had kept her hands on his heart and stopping its fast beating. "XXXXX, I will never leave you. I will be with you till my death comes. ",she expressed her feelings. But he was not able to say anything at that time, he just closed his eyes....He took back his hands from her. He felt like someone is tearing away a part of his heart same time. At that time song playing was also one of sad song- Bheegi bheegi si. So much pain he was experiencing with fake smile still on his face. Again for some time no one was speaking. Then he changed the subject and chatted for an half hour and they left the place. While taking leave he realised that he had forgotten to give DairyMilk that he had brought for her..he took that out from his pocket. ohh no...its condition was just like his heart. Still she took it from him and they both left.
Next day I went to his place asking about what happened . I asked him," arre tell me yaar, what happened yesterday? and why are you upset? forget it yaar...ye sab chalta rehta hai..relaxed buddy"...." Arre Harsha, you will not understand all this and I can't forget re...and I don't want to forget too...Those are the most beautiful moments I ever experienced in my life. I can't forget them. Harsha, I am not upset at all( he smiled towards me). I am happy...arre I am lucky enough yaar..at least I didn't come to know her sandal number....", he kept his head on my shoulder and he started crying like little boy.

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